Light it Up
|Purple and sparkly|
day-to-day life. I've talked about a lot of things.
The honest truth is I'm tired of talking. I am one of many, whose ranks grow larger everyday, who have been talking about this for years. Autism didn't just show up. It's been around as an official diagnosis as far back as the 1940s. People have been talking about it since then. Celebrities and sports stars have had children or siblings on the spectrum and have used their positions to discuss what that means. Scientists and doctors have been arguing about causes since one of them deemed that it was the fault of the mother (clearly a man, and clearly not the brightest of men), and then it was the fault of television, and then it was the fault of the environment, and then it was a host of other things - all deduced from thousands of studies, wasting who knows how much money, to find a correlation between certain things and autism. And as any researcher worth their grants is aware; correlation is not causation. Wasted money. All talk. Nothing truly ventured: certainly not much gained. Talk, talk, talk, talk, talk.
I'd rather do something than talk about it at this point. So today, I'm lighting it up. But I'm not playing by the rules - autism doesn't seem to play by any certain set of rules so I feel it's appropriate - I'm not lighting it up blue like so many others are on World Autism Day. I think it's a great campaign and I love the idea of a visual representation, but blue is not our autism. Blue is melancholy and sadness. Blue is reverent. Blue is conservative. Blue is calming. Blue is mysterious. Autism is none of those things in this house. I won't lie. Autism has made me melancholy and sad in the past and certainly it will throw that blue veil over me again in the future. But I'm working hard not to let it. Working hard not to let that blue obscure the sweet girl with whom it mingles. And I'm sure as hell not calm about autism. It's every blue word I can recall when it's considered acceptable and adequate care for doctors to look at parents, children, young adults, and adults who have questions about autism and say: "No known cause, no known cure." And then send them out the door. That actually makes me see red. Nope. Autism here isn't blue.
|Also purple and sparkly|
Lighting it up with bubbles